January 3, 2011
Instead of thinking about all the positive self-help thinking that is out there, especially this time of year, I read something that struck me about how life is a story. I was intrigued. Simply put, we are just characters in our own story. We can make our stories true or not. We can create or eliminate characters in our story. For some reason this resonated with me. Do I want to keep fighting the same battles and having my story turn out the same? Do I want the same people in my story? Can I make myself the hero instead of the victim?
Before I go on, let me summarize my story up to this point. My name is Jennie and I like, no I love food. It is my friend, my social companion, my enemy, my comforter and any other “person” you can connect to. Food and my weight have been the main characters in my story. I am an emotional eater, food addict, whatever the label is, I am it. I have struggled with it my whole life. I am a competitive person and usually when I set a goal I will accomplish it. If you tell me to run a marathon, I will train, plan and do it. If you tell me to do 2 hour spin classes, I will set my mind and do it. If I want a promotion, I will do what needs to be done and get my promotion. However, if you tell me that I can think of myself as thin and have control over this battle with weight or if you tell me to cut back on my portions, I will say okay and then worry on how I am going to accomplish it and then sooner than later… I blow it, eat more than I need to and then follow with the regret, the blame, and the extra workouts to make up for it. My chapters are starting to get boring.
I can’t rewrite my story because you can’t go back. Regret is a horrible monster. But instead of rewriting, I simply will change my story. I wrote that I have always struggled with food, and yes that may be true, but in my new story, I can challenge the internal battle. In my new story, I will make me the main character instead of food and the battle. I will focus on the greatness I am achieving no matter how small or large instead of the negative or what I am not doing. I will add new characters that can help me build meaning to my story.
I have goals that I would like to achieve this year – goals are part of my story, and this time the story cannot end. That has happened to me before, and then I have to start over. Instead, I am learning to build from my prior chapters. My new story is a lifestyle change.
Goals for this chapter of my story:
Practice the Fill Your Cup Lifestyle every meal.
By April, be 2 sizes smaller
Cardio-4X per week Core and strength training 3-5X per week.
Over the next few months, I will be sharing my story with you in this blog. I challenge you to whole heartedly think about what your story has been up to this point in your life and what you are going to do with that story. Share your thoughts by clicking “comments” to the left.